Friday, July 8, 2011

transcendent redemptive epiphany 1

At the risk of sounding overly dramatic, although that's never stopped me before, I have been given a new lease on life. Some people loose limbs or loved ones or get cancer and as a consequence they develop a fresh perspective about the world and their place in it. Me, I just quit my job and it's probably one of the most meaningful things I have ever done.

I feel like I'll never take anything for granted ever again. The antecedents of my eventual disaffection seem almost trivial on reflection. Examined in exclusion they hardly seem noteworthy, but somehow each combined to create one deadly Molotov cocktail of I can't take this shit anymore. Alienation was rife. I was ready to declare myself Marxist and begin a revolution. I was ready to go postal. *Primal Scream* GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!

I'm no mathematician, but sometimes in life you get addition by subtraction. Bruce Lee used to say "Strip away the unnecessary. Take what is useful, dispose of what is not, add that which is uniquely your own." Ever get the feeling that you're too old to waste time doing shit that you don't want to do. I'm 31 and I'm already having a mid-life crisis. That job was not helping. Then again it did give me this wonderful sense that if I could get through that difficult period of my life, I could get through anything. I had to wonder though if I can get through anything, then why prolong this suffering longer than necessary, let's try something else.



Paul Sunstone said...

Good for you, Loren! Time is too precious to waste on something we hate doing. Best of luck finding a job you want!

Loren said...

Cheers Paul, getting paid to do what I want for a living might be a ways off, but this is a step in the right direction.