Wednesday, January 6, 2010

rhetoric and resolutions

On the return flight to my new home land, that vast brown expanse we call Australia, I had a minor tripartite life crisis. It began with a man's arm which is no better or worse then any other beginning I can think of. There it was before me, a forearm sized And 1 tattoo, on an arm, attached to a man. I bet he regrets that now. How many weird and wonderful things do I regret doing? I wish in some ways that there were many more. It's been a quiet and dutifully passive existence thus far.

I am some kind of weird Bizzaro Benjamin Button, I didn't start doing childish things until I was 30 and behaved like an octogenarian when I was younger. It's funny how life works out.

I'm sitting on a plane watching Juno and reading the Alchemist (both for the first time). There aren't many things in this world that make me wish that I was a 16 year old girl, but I think I've found one. I am the anima to Juno's animus except not as witty or pregnant, but I can come up with some random ass shit for sure, there's a colossal pile of random ass shit that I can dig into when needed.

At 30,000 feet you can almost hear the sound of the universe strumming its super strings. I'm looking for a chord inside that resonates with creations subtle tune. I need a new grand narrative, a new personal legend, a regenerating hair line.

This year I'll cause a ruckus. This year I'll actually do something. This year my resolve will last longer than two weeks. Three would be nice. The only thing that matters now is legacy.

next: what exactly it is that I'll be doing

2 comments:

simplysarah said...

"I didn't start doing childish things until I was 30 and behaved like an octogenarian when I was younger."

Oh man, me too! Ironic!

"At 30,000 feet you can almost hear the sound of the universe strumming its super strings. I'm looking for a chord inside that resonates with creations subtle tune."

Yes and yes.

Looking forward to hearing what exactly you'll want to be doing.

Loren said...

Howdy Sarah,

It's strange to me how empowering it is to do silly things from time to time. Sometimes you've just got relax and have some fun. Well, I've also got some sensible things that I'll be working on throughout this year. It should be a good one.